It’s a lie…

… that “time heals all wounds” thing. It’s a lie.  I’m not healing. I won’t ever heal. My heart will always ache with missing Danny just as it will always swell with love for him. Those two things go hand-in- hand and while I’m not thrilled at living the rest of my life desperately missing every single thing about my sweet man, I’m certainly not going to wish away my love for him just because I hate going to bed every night.

Grief sucks – there’s just no way around that. Yet for me, the act of grieving – the intentional, purposeful work of walking this journey of grief – has become a spiritual practice over these last seven and a half months. Again, not easy and certainly not fun, but those intimate  honest, raw moments when the pain of profound loss drives me to my knees, God meets me there and reminds me once again that I’m not doing this alone.

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About Barbara Curtis

"It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end." ~ Hemingway
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One Response to It’s a lie…

  1. laurie says:

    A friend of mine said once that they had learned to ‘incorporate the loss into their life’ and that’s how I have always thought of the process since…to me, healing means you’ve had a wound that ‘gets better’ and that’s not what the loss of a person is to me…it’s part of my life, it’s part of my everyday thoughts and actions so it’s not healing I need, I need to figure out how to keep going in a forward direction when all I really want to do sometimes is go back to a place where that person was alive…..wishing you peace and love, laurie

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